you

its  a cold and lifeless  night

and i  am  here  stuck

with question of you 

i have  left you 

alone

in the darkness 

with no friend 
.

i sit here 

on this rock 

looking up to 

the moon

wishing 

i could forget you 
.

but how could i ?

for 5 years 

and

3 lying words 

"i love you"

.

has been embeded

in my

 core  and been running through 

my veins like poison

.

what is love?

i am damage

and trying my best to repair 

the wounds 

and bruises 

that is left on my soul

i hear laughter in the wind 

life she mocks me 

when will i be happy again?

when  will the joy begin
watching waiting
to be part of the crowd 
to chime in 
with thoughts
and feelings 
i bite my lips
hoping 
not to stutter 
.
you have done this 
.
and its my fault for letting you
.
your excuse is
 your trying to save me
but instead you 
enslaved me 
imprison 
me with 
your
 "love"

words.
stick and stone 
may break my bones 
but WORDS
will never hurt
.
i have  left you  alone
alone 
like you left me
.
you have abandon me and strip me from my amenity
you have charge me for the ounce of your affection 
and had me
begging please
you had degraded me and discarded me  with 
nothing more  than 
"your a waste of time you stupid whore"
these are forever trap with my mind  
and replays costantly
so tonight i leave you there
alone 
with nothing more than nightmare 
you bestow onto me