lonely need friends ( old blog i forgot about)

Lonely Ne3d Friends?

(Pick me)

theirs  nothing more depressing but those words i want 2 scream @ the top of my lungs ! 

so whats new? 

well,

Broke up w/ my bf *again* 

(shocker!) 

and i'm not going back 

(shakes head)

anyways...

why is it  hard 2 make friends when ur an adult?

mmmm?

idk really...

I

keep asking myself that question over and over

I'm so lonely 2 the point that i am talking 2 homeless people... 

and random strangers .. 

but even they seem 2 run aways 4rm me 

i guess

desperation isnt cute

just annoying

and creepy

=___=

So my mission in life is to make 

FRIENDS! 

& not

* FWB!*

Psh!

 i learn my lesson 

& the lesson is ... 

well some1

 always takes it the wrong way

Mostly the girl?  

(giggles)

yeah? 

I was a FWB more than a couple times 

its seems like the guys always has to remind me 

that im stuck in their friend zone 

& nothing is ever going

to happen 

(ouch!)

so save 2 myself 4rm the heart ache 

I am sexually *Quarantine*

or maybe  emotionality 

or both 

idk

but i am  depressed 

not over the break up 

but

the idea 

i have no friends 

okay okay

i do have friends 

but you cant see them 

cuz their on line 

or they live far away

4rm me 

i must be crazy 

 i dont want to go 

on 

Craigslist

looking 

for friends

and get killed 

i dont know 

but maybe its good 

to be LONELY

lol 

(F1n)