Serendipity

Serendipity: is the effect by which one accidentally stumbles upon something fortunate, especially while looking for something entirely unrelated.

*sigh*

its 12:04am

love,

How i want to fall inlove is like

Serendipity

BLAH!!

anywho

ENOUGH ABOUT LOVE!!!

I feel so lost and crazy i guess thats why i cut

my hair not for anyone else

just for myself

i am hurt

i am guess thats easy to say

and

i feel

alone.

um, i tried ... talking to "friends"

but no one want to here my problems

cuz people have their own issues to

deal with

so why do they want to hear yours

and i still didnt finish my

painting

-_____-

there so

much

frustration

well

i wanna cut my hair like

Janet Jackson

in Scream!

she looks like a Sexy Mental Patient

this blogg isnt deep

but just me talking

about my emotions

-_____-

i am sad

Las Vegas Trip!!! yah!!

:wonderful:Amazing:

9:58 am

-___-?

ur wonderful ur amazing

can i be anymore creepy

to this

person

that

is my

muse

....

blah!

try to be honest telling someone

there something more

what they

really

think they are

and i get

shut down

like

...

"trash"

but still

it totally doesnt really

bother me much

being Rejected!

i just cant see why

he doesnt see

himself something more

...

*sigh*

maybe i am just not that

1

4 him

2 make him

smile... etc.

people think u cant love

a person because their far

but

....

you can

or

maybe

they're right

and

u cant

(fuck me)

but still

the way i love my muse

isnt just a

sexual thing

or anything stupid

i am not a little girl

but i know that he would never care

for me the way i do

for him

and its

a waste

cuz i am doom to be alone in this world

trap in a relationship that makes me wanna jump to a world with no

2marrow

wah!

but anyways

maybe

i am looking for someone to say the same to me

someone too see

how wonderful and amazing i am

yah?

...

but i should

just

realized by now

that this so call "muse"

isnt going to do shit

but fuck you

...

i throw myself

2

much thinking he is going to

accept me with open arms

*cheers*

but no

....

all what is going threw his mind is

"RED FLAG"

am i that much of a loser

to fall for

a guy who lives in the

UK?'

fuck it

...

what ever

i can go for ice cream

rocky road

yum

....

i am not really looking 4 another half of me yet

and rejection is

good

....

i love emotions

good , bad , sad, mad

its something we go threw in life

so what

i got rejected to

the next biggest thing in art history

but

hey

its life

fuck off

-FiN-

ART GROUPIE

12:19 am

i should try to truthfully honest on my blog.

but i attend to cover the truth

with lil'

angel dust of fucking lies.

its just my nature to keep shit 2 myself

so i got these Glasses & this Hat

to feel close to this person i am inlove

with and stalking

Fuck it !

I am an

Art Groupie

am i the only

one out

there

that will

give

a Blow Job

to a Fucking

Art Genius

4 painting

a pretty

picture

sounds

stupid

writing

it

i must be a total

sult

fuck it

as long i don't

STD's

i am Cool

and

its not like

i haven't

done it

yet!

i just say

random shit

like that

so dont

take me fucking

serious

when i say i

love you

and i wanna

suck ur

dick

...

unless

u got a condom yah!

game on

homie

*Sigh*

any who David Choe♥

my obsession for the night

hearing

his voice

makes my blood RUSH!

meow

GRrawR

hehe

He something and one i wanna love and be

is that weird

in a stalker way

....

i get this many time

when

i see an ARTISTIC GENIUS

my heart

BEATING FAST

&

My EYES LIGHT UP

WITH DESIRE

AND MY LIPS

MOIST

WITH

NEED

&

I JUST GET

SOooO

RAnDy!

i have issues

mmm

but still

he is someone

i want to be

(smile)

i like to think of myself

as an

Artist too

even though i suck

And of course

already i have my

disappointments

with

a man i thought was

a Musical Genius

and turns out to be

Crap!

a big ol' puff ball

and Cheese!

yuck

(off topic, i know)

David Choe...

it feels so good ..

saying his name

haha!

STALKER

RED FLAG!

haha

i know i will never see

him

and so

on

...

but this is a Obsession of the night

laying here ... watching and Reading ...

pages and videos

of him on line

makes me wanna paint

-__-?

but am i goOoD

sometimes i feel

like i am trying too

hard

maybe i am just

for this one person

to see me

yes i am one those girls

who have daddy issues

look daddy look

look at me Daddy

why dont u love me

daddy

!!

so i try to win emotional affection

with men

but i always seek out men who

can just give a damn

about me

sucky! isnt it

so over play and fuck it'

moving on......

my favorite word

i been saying this new

year

is the

Word: Fuck

.

kinda lost track what the hell i am

talking about

all i know its fuckin

cold

and this owl

out side

keeps

"whOooing"

which

is ccreeping me out

cuz in my culture owls

are bad luck &

they bring death

-________-

fuck

so

i am freak

but i guess

i should end this random

blog about nothing

yah*

hive five

2 my Imaginary Friends

-FiN-

Crack Heads need loving 2

"My Heart feels like it beating fast yet slow at the same time

my face .... twitch ... time to fuckin write.. this mess"

... 4:36 am....

(sigh)

Good Morning.

right now

in my head

there nothing more...

than nothing

...

can't help but want it 2

rain

2 wash

the tears

that can't fall

4rm my eyes

.....

I'm waiting 4 u 2 log on ur IM....

i have something

4 u 2

l♡ve

me

.....

?

this is the only

way i can

have ur attention

even though after i show u

u carry on cherry

about ur life ignoring

that i

l♡ve

u

....

yum CHERRIES!

seriously

u will forget my heart!

like u always do ...

waiting...

closing my eyes my mind is wandering off 2

space listening to

Ben Harper

(FUCK my Foot asleep)

...5:o0 AM..

u don't show

i guess i can show

u

another time

sometimes i wish

some"1" who

can c me

some "1"

2

l♡ve

(sigh)

not feelin so random

and i lost

my happy mood

i want my happy mood

well i guess i go with nothing more than nothing like i started

i can't

say to much

blah blah

-FiN-