Addiction.
Do i have an addiction?
am i addicted too you ?
Mr. Computer
*sigh*
I don't think so,
but the lack of the so called
"social life"
begs to differ...
watching the telly
about cyber addiction
have me wondering
about my own
mental health?
what kind of person
am i ?
i know i want to be
a kind person
and
loving person
a smart person
a healthy person
a
"normal person"
....
idk
reading my past blogs
about myself
i realized
how clueless
i was
or
am i still
that
clueless girl ...
waiting and needing to be heard and to beloved?
mmm... i don't think so ...
i'm not saying i don't believe in
this so called thing named
"love"
when it happens
it happens
right now its not
on my top list
to fall
in loved
But
if i do
i want
this time
to be normal
.....
(((YES)))
i want a normal relationship
....
what is a normal relationship?
are you asking ...
idk
i guess
someone with a
job
and has
his own place
...
i really dont know
but i know whats
not normal
like
meaning no more
on line dating
i did that
too many times.
and they all fail.
most of them are crazy..
so i want to end that
strange chapter
in my weblife.
meeting guys at bars
most guys i meet at bars
are jerks
wanting to
get free
ride.
(wink wink)
over religious
guys.
or
over the board
anything
.....
i just can't go there .
another
thing
no more
self obsessed
Douchebags
*sigh*
besides im too old to be
to
keep selling
myself
short.
with pitiful
human
behaviour.
*sigh*
I remember the
time
i try to
change
myself
to
impressed
the
opposite sex
No more
if a guy
likes me
he likes me
for me
which
is
?
I guess i really don't
know
myself
yet.
??
i dont know
but
I want try to keep myself
off the internet ..
i'm not saying
im going cold turkey
....
but i
want to start getting know myself
more
and do lots of reading
.....
http://listverse.com/2007/08/18/top-15-great-science-fiction-books/
i'm getting
into
science fiction
books.
oh yeah more painting and drawing
and
i want more friends
in my life
My goal in life is
2
try to make
a friend
day
when
i
go
out
....
