I'm Easy 2
l♡vᴱ
why cant sum①
l♡vᴱ
me
i met sum➀
saying
they
l♡vᴱ
me
&
all i have 2 do is
accept
but sum how i feel like its a joke
and suṁday he will stop
l♡vᴱing
me
*|*|*
The other half of me is sayin is this normal
can sum¹
l♡vᴱ
u
even if there never touch
you?
i guess people are different
to love sumone 4rm a far
i mean i had and can but
i cant never really
understand how
can sumone love me
in the same matter
...
i find it odd
and scary
*|*|*
2 know sum1 can
l♡vᴱ me
how i can tell if i know i am in
l♡vᴱ
is the way i touch him ...
if i can feel the warmth
then i know
but like i said before people are different
maybe i should accept his love
"you never get what u want you get what u need"
&
maybe i need his
l♡vᴱ
maybe i need him
and maybe i should love him
but i am scared....
i wish i wasnt so clingy and i need
to talk to him
daily to feel needed or loved ...
thats 4suRe i know
isnt healthy
at all
but i l♡vᴱ
hearing his voice
its makes me feel safe
when
my world feels
like its falling apart
✖
his voice heals my soul
he makes feel like
a million dollars
like i'm prettiest girl in
the world
he makes my heart smile
i know i dont tell him much about myself
or whats goin on with my life
and but
i want to share
everything
i want to tell him everything
......
and i dont know whats holding me back
(agh!)
i know whats holding me back
myself
cuz
I think sum day he will turn on me
and use my personal thoughts
against me
2 hurt me
and he will realized i'm a waste of time
and leave me
........
i know i care about him
i know i l♡vᴱ him
cuz
i
love
him for loving me
........
but i'm scared of him
cuz i dont want him to hurt me
and be like
the rest of them
i want him to be my
super man
my good guy
my hero
someone i can run to
sum one i hide too
you
sum one i can
love
but
i just think i am not good enough for anyones love
and that is sumthing i have to fuckin deal with
i need to start loving myself before i love anyone else.... cuz
i hold myself back 4rm happiness
with all this crazy thoughts
i mean what if he doesnt hurt me....
and if he did
it will only make me stronger ...
and wiser
"what cums pain cums thought what cums thought cums wisdom"
...
i dont know why i'm writing this blog
and about him
maybe cuz i went out
with group of friends
talking about our love lifes
and so on
...
and i was picturing him
with us
hangin on me
and so on ...
or should i say
fantasizing
about him
with me
and how
it would be like ...
LOSER right GET OVER IT
GOOOD TO BED DrUNKIE!!
heheh
DruNkie
thats an inside joke
heheheheh
i was calling my brother drunkie and my doggy
came running tooo me
with his tail wagging.
he likes it
its Chirokos new nick name !!!
i just dont want to get hurt
i love sumone so much that i still do to the point i cry knowing deep down inside he doesnt love me at all and i should let him go and forget about him
and everything but i cant
......
;__;
no but seriously
i should idk i am getting tired...
so gunnna just go to bed goin to wake up late
o yea did i tell you i ate like a PIG not that long ago
i hope i dont get a heart attacked die
in bed if so this whole blog would have been meaningless
well night who ever reads
this crap !
seriously
who reads this ...
i know i use to stalk this one guy and read his blog EVERY FUCKIN DAY!!
he is
actually the whole reason why i got this stupid blog.
page thingy and then idk
what happen but any who
**kisses Night**
