Wednesday, August 8, 2012

Ouch My Pride


Nauseous 


Oh my Pride! thats  all i have to  say... 
(laughs)


My love  life ... SUCKS! 
(laughs) 

so i've been dating sense 
my break up 

i know i felt horrible 
said he loved me 
but he was 
never really was to good 
me
he was cold n
so mean 2 me
calling me names 
like whore , Slut 
and idk

thank god its over 

.... 


.... 

got my heart  broken 
3 times ...

since then.
..... 

.... 

first two aren't 

really worth 
talking about 

so 

I'm moving
on to 

*cough*

The Recent 
....


He  just  text me 
telling me 


He didnt want me 
no more 




Ahh.. my pride 




i trusted him 


and 



now hes gone like that 

its amazing 
how 

easy it is for all of them 


to leave me like i'm 
nothing 


.... 



Part of me  wants to get sad think yes

i am NOTHING


Nah 
its stupid to think like 
that 
i mean there's a reason for everything ... 


Maybe its not time for me 


to love 

or 2 
really love ....




I mean i havent really know myself yet
and i dont know
why
 i want to jump into a relationship

... i never really learn my lesson ... 




i'm tired of guys loving and leaving 

now im going to be the one who 
is going to be leaving
and not trying 
anymore..



Im kinda  sad that i lost a Friend.. 
i mean who am i going to talk too.. 
but the past him ..
(smile)
and remembering all 
the good things  he would tell me 

when i got my heart broken 
.... 
"If he cant see what a wonder person you are then he's not a guy for you,
you should more on"



*sigh*

I'm  not going to trust guys anymore... 
nor. fall in love 
nor fall for friends.

or
 " cyber friendly guys"





its hard when ur 
HOPELESS ROMANTIC


but im going to  TRY SO HARD !!! 


2 stay away 

4rm the idea of love


i know my blog doesnt make any sense i've been walking around listening too youtubes of songs to make me feel better ... 4rm this heart ache 


Plus talking too people on skype 
THANK YOU CYBER BUDDIES!! 

my last  Blog i wrote how i was addicted  to the internet and i should stop and 
get a life
and i have
and got hurt 
by rotten 
people

.....
im such a emo*

School Starting
Should be interesting  no? i think so ... i think with this Heart ache ...
im going use this as art.... 


" dust the shadow flows again
 .. i feel the soreness embracing me..
 of love
 has falling into darkness and nothing more
 i am left with an
empty reflection

Oh  woe is me
.... 
the pain that is heavy
 on thy heart...
i am 
burn with 
scars
nor longer 
i can 
try
nor 
longer 
i can cry...
it hurts deep 
inside..
the thought 
of you reminds inside"