scared of the dark.

I'm scared of in dark.

i hate sleeping alone.

i think thats why i choose to sleep during the day time cuz i feel

safe.

is that weird?

anywho writting a blog i just woke up and i wanna head back to bed

i thought i could talk to you but ur busy

always busy

*smile*

i'm glad ur getting ur life together and stuff

its going to be alonely with out

you

im so use of you around

calling talking to me

i guess im just

spoiled

and i just want ur attention

why do i need so much attention

i feel like

my cat

always crying

Meow meow meow

pay attention to me

all i can think of is you !!! and laying

in bed with you

and not being scared of the dark no more

but that wont happen

anytime soon

i hate liking you so much

AH!

well whatever ur doing

i hope ur happy

and enjoyin life

i guess i have to learn not

to love you as much so i wont be clingy

so these next blogs im going to write how

2 fall out of love ...

this is goin to be hard cuz it took me awhile to fall in love with him

but i'm needy and he has life ... and i cant be in his way

besides he told me he use to be a cheater

=_____=

that kinda scares me

what if i FALL MADLY IN LOVE WITH HIM SO MADLY AnD he ends up

cheating on me and leaving me

i cant have that

nope nope nope

so i need to protect my heart .

I have to keep in mind that Guys are guys .. and guys fuck up most of the time

i never met a honest guy.

which makes me sad right now i wanna cry cuz

i really believed that he was different 4rm the rest

that he was sweet and amazing

and loving

and blah blah

i'm so confused

on line dating is never smart

its always heart breaking and confusing

but some how i trust him

and i love him

is just maybe

i need too....

take a break

i feel like he is taking a break with me as well.

he has been goin out and stuff i havent talk 2 him as much on skype

so i guess he really doesnt care as much as he says he does

here i am waiting like an fuckin idoit waiting

and writting about him

fuck me!

some times i wish some one can find me

and love me

in real life

and none of this internet bullshit

why am i on line again?

o yeah to talk to people and to get my ARTISTIC VISION out there

which isnt working well

cuz theirs a shit load of people like me

i hate being a cookie cutter

anywho im finding myself still

(what was i talking about again)

oh yah my love life on the internet

is it worth it?

am i worth it ?

is he worth it?

ah fuck it !

he is busy with life

so i guess

now i need to move on as well like he did

and start doin my own shit

Maybe if im lucky he would miss me and write about me

lol

yeah ?

i dont think he would

lol

im alonely little fucker!