its almost my birthday✰
so far
everything
is fallin apart
as normally
this year lets
think
Oh, yes!
(smile)
my fuckin car ...
(sad face)
my poor little car
its broken
so i gotta take it to the shop
(wahhhh)
;_______;
why does all the bad stuff starts 2 happen when it cums
near 2
my birthday
P.S. i have no clue what to do for my WONDERFUL
23rd
Birthday
lately i been depressed. . .
about "LAME family DRAMA"
so i dont think i have much friends
to Celebrate with
cuz i've stuck myself in my room
and pay attention to the internet
than living in reality
.
im sounding a little emo huh ?
well ...
depending my "on line BF"
to comfort to my emotional needs
isnt really normal isnt it ?
plus the tyme zone
is SO OMG!
lets see its 2:58am
here in cali.
and
in
scotland
its
"MMmmm"
(checking my iPhone)
10:58am
and he is sleeping
i can call his cellphone ...
i guess but
this depression is making me lose my
mind
slowly
piece by piece
i can feel my brain
decaying.
besides ( whispers )
"i dont wanna wake him up"
i hate feeling like i' bugging him '
calling him
wanting him
needing his attention
OH GOD WHATS WRONG WITH ME!!
hes in FUCKING SCOTLAND!!
did you know i had him read my last blog!
then he thought i broke up with him
i had to explain to him nahh, im just crazy and i need ur
attention.
can you say this with me "psycho"
yes i know i am psycho needy clingy and weird
and yeah this is the only guy that probably thinks
i'm a Goddess♡
poor fool
i keep telling him
i'm waste of time
and
he shouldn't
love me
i wasn't meant to beloved
but
he does
and i love him
for loving me
besides
hes so adorable
oh yeah where was i goin on with this blog again YAH my crappy life
BIRTHDAY IS CUMMING UP
im so excited
another LONELY YEAR
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