catch me

Age 24.

life is nothing more than a mess

....

am i as

selfish...

as people around me

emotional

... crying

to be notice

.

i'm not alone

i guess

but

how can i feel so alone

and disconnected 4rm

the world

when we nothing

more

than

children crying

to be heard

i feel like

my life was

just

words

written

on the sand

and

it's been

wash away

panic attacks

are getting worst

soon i wont

be able to

breath

...

whose to care

but God

*sigh*

i keep dead flowers in my room....

i dont know why

maybe its the first time i ever had

flowers in my life

makes me feel

some what love

even though their

dead

.

theirs nothing but clothes and shit on the floor...

My bed still smells like him

.......

i keep my make up in a shopping bag.

i have holes in my socks and tights

.....

no matter what i eat i seem to be getting fatter

....

should i even eat at all ..

something is wrong with me

but i cant tell

what it is...

im too scared to go

to the Doctors.

I dont know whats with this blog to be honest ....

but, help me

love me

catch me

before something happens