whats wrong with me ?

Am i Crazy? am i weak? am i lonely?

and am i unable 2 be love?

i hate begging for attention and affection .

but i do it.

why?

i even pay for it ... to

just get any emotion 4rm someone

i will even give my body

just to feel loved

for a moment.

but it never last.

whats wrong with me ?

am just child waiting in the shadow of darkness to beloved...

you say you love me

and i should be happy

but somehow love you are never there

2 be found when i need you

the most

so here i am again alone in

this room.

closing my eyes trying to remember what happiness

was.

your voice.

sweet voice .

how u forsake me.

so fast.

calling you is useless

messaging you is meaningless

just like my love.

i hate being so scared of

..this..

darkness...

but some odd way its my only friend.

to hold me and shield

me 4rm.

my reflection of

self-pity.

love where have u gone.

i need you.

i love you.

i want you.

where are u ?